Just close your eyes, we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

He's now the only reason to all the smiles I put on my face everyday.

It's been a while since I last felt like that;

His presence makes me nervous,

And whenever I'm around him my heart skips a beat;

I finally remembered what's it like to have finally like someone.

Thank you for making my time living in Australia worthwhile.

 :)

So let's set the world on fire

You're cute, adorable and undeniably good looking in every single way.

You make my heart skip a beat every time I see your face.

But you're the same reason to my fears and worries that I think about every single day.

Because love and relationships draws that very fine line to the end of every friendship you have,

a new beginning or a ridiculous end.

Party rock is in the house tonight!

Here's a little update from Melbourne! Melbourne's been treating me well, I'm gaining weight and sooner or later I'm gonna look like a balloon. :(  Gonna start working out again, back to Dance Central and some cardio exercises! :)

Went clubbing for the grand opening of Imperial Club at Lonsdale Street. I enjoyed my night because clubbing's only right when you're with the right people. They make your clubbing night worthwhile. :)  No more clubbing for the time being, broke and assignments. :( Bad combination. 

 Getting ready for that night. :)

 At the club, with Matt and Emi. :)

The girls - Emi, Sharon, Janice and Mei Lin.

Mei Lin :)

 Sharon babe :)

 Ryan :)

 My love :)

Photo credits - taken by Imperial Club. :)

I set fire to the rain

Because writing them down would keep your emotions intact, 

and you'll know what to do thereafter. :)

True Story. 

Here me say, all these time we were waiting for each other

Looking back at all our broken and shattered memories, the pictures that we both had - it made me realized why I've lost myself in life. Never in life, have I loved someone as much as I did for you; never in life had I placed so much commitment and effort for anyone; never in life had I ever depended and rely on someone as much as I did for you.


The day I made my decision to leave you, was the day I lost myself and I screwed up. And later on, you came back into my life to pick up the broken, fucked up pieces of me. You pieced me together and it was you who pulled me together. And then after, I changed, you changed. We were both no longer the lovers that we used to be anymore. I kept you hanging, you were confused and upset. 


Finally, I've decided to end all our pain due to me being indecisive, which was best for both of us. Today, I looked through our remaining photos I have of us made me think through many things. I realized I didn't know how to love someone anymore and I missed having someone to go through life with me. 


The day I left you was the day love has left me. I realized I missed you, and I still do love you. But no matter, life goes on. And knowing what I am lacking in life, it's time to piece myself back together and start healing for a better tomorrow. I want to be the girl who used to know how to love someone, I want to be the girl who knew what she wanted out of a relationship instead of having flings. :)

Just remember I won't let you go

I honestly do not know how did my cousin sister managed to get my Fei Fei to actually sit still and take a picture with her. One, I've tried a gazillion times and I failed miserably. It's either she runs somewhere else to hide from the camera or she shows me her butt. Two, when I make her sit still to take a picture, she sees the camera, she play dead. -_-" mother of god. 

But anyways, back to my story. Skyped with my parents today and they were telling me how much my dog misses me. How I used to drive to my grandma's place and she'll wait behind the gates because she can hear the sound of my car engine. Now when she hears my car engines, she still wait behind the gates as per usual but now she only sees my mother and my brother. And then she'll start crying and whining and giving my parents that disappointing face. It's so heartbreaking to hear that, and I had tears in my eyes. Really. Not too sure if anyone actually knows how I feel but, I'm really heartbroken.

Fei, I miss you too and I love you. :'( See you in 4 months time.

Like a satellite we're flying, overhead where we see it all

Never in my whole university life have I ever done any readings before I go to class. Now that I'm in Australia, I've decided to be a little bit more hardworking so I wouldn't look so stupid in class, hence I did all my readings. End results? I was mind-fcked throughout the whole lecture. Wonderful much? Haih, stupidity level: 999999.

Screw Monash for a bit, attended Trinity's friend's birthday party last Saturday. Buffet dinner, paid 33 dollars and only ate like one piece of cake? Miserable much? (Wasn't feeling to well, money went down the drain.) Head over the Crystal after that. Good music I swear, but didn't really dance much. 

Dance floor was so crowded, even going to toilet was difficult. -_-" And yes, I got a bruise while going to the toilet cause of the crowd, knocked into some stupid box. So I have two bruise each on my knees. Viola! :D 

Group photo, got the picture from Crystal Club via Facebook. :D

And yes, in support of the Anti-Lynas Campaign being held in Malaysia, Trinity decided to start her own campaign in Aussie! :)  So, it was time for me to put my drawing skills into good use. Not like I drew anything much cause it was mainly writing but yeah, it's been a while since I did anything close to arts. :)