A bittersweet goodbye

Ah I'm so sleepy now, didn't sleep that well yesterday night. Some stupid donkey called me at 4am in the morning just to tell me what happened between him and his crush, and I don't quite remember half the conversation, because yes I WAS SLEEPING! I might have said a hundred million nonsense and I don't quite remember what I said.

But anyways, to that stupid (if you're actually reading this), next time call later in the morning like 10am in Australia! Not 4am in Australia, okay? Arigatou gozaimasu! :) Alison needs her sleep too! I'm no robot, but of course I'll help you if you need my help but not 4am in the morning!!!

 Anyways, I woke up pretty early (for a Sunday) to bake chili tuna puffs - another contributing factor to why I am so sleepy now! Oh, and I successfully baked 10 tuna puffs, so proud of my achievement! Nothing got burnt or dismantled throughout the process. It came out neat, crunchy and hot. *Claps hands*

Apparently I woke Celine while baking cause it smells really good. Hehehe. And yes, the bottom picture is my chili tuna puffs masterpiece. Yums!

After eating all of Celine's cookies, cakes and chocolate eggs, it's about time I baked something for them as well. So viola - tuna puffs! And I must say it actually taste pretty good! And I've eaten three pieces of puffs for breakfast! Noms noms noms (2 small and 1 big piece). I will bake for mummy and daddy when I get back to Malaysia! Mastering the art of cooking and baking! Yes!

And to think, how can I not put on weight with the rate I'm eating? Motherofgod. Oh and tonight we'll be heading out to Gami Fried Chicken and Beer with Val and her friend Grace. Ah fried chicken and it's Gami! Double yums. Man, I'm going to be so fat! Must do insanity later! Hardcore workouts yo!

An old picture of me, taken in year 2011. And it's about time for me to do some work! Ciao!

It'll all get better in time

Easter holidays are finally here! It's about time for us to all have a break from uni, but then again I don't even go to uni as often as I do in Malaysia. In fact, I only have classes 3 days a week and I have 4 days of weekends, so I still feel like I'm on a holiday in Australia and not here for studies. But I promise to do well in my subjects, while I play and enjoy my stay here as well. :)


About 2 weeks ago, had a drinking session over at my place with Celine, Mac, Emica, Gerard and Anthony. :) It was all good fun when its with all the right people. You guys make my stay in Australia worthwhile, love you guys big time! Now, I really don't feel like leaving Australia and time's passing by a little bit too fast. Please slow down! I don't wanna leave in 3 months time. :(

Pictures from the night - drinking session.

Just close your eyes, we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

He's now the only reason to all the smiles I put on my face everyday.

It's been a while since I last felt like that;

His presence makes me nervous,

And whenever I'm around him my heart skips a beat;

I finally remembered what's it like to have finally like someone.

Thank you for making my time living in Australia worthwhile.

 :)

So let's set the world on fire

You're cute, adorable and undeniably good looking in every single way.

You make my heart skip a beat every time I see your face.

But you're the same reason to my fears and worries that I think about every single day.

Because love and relationships draws that very fine line to the end of every friendship you have,

a new beginning or a ridiculous end.

Party rock is in the house tonight!

Here's a little update from Melbourne! Melbourne's been treating me well, I'm gaining weight and sooner or later I'm gonna look like a balloon. :(  Gonna start working out again, back to Dance Central and some cardio exercises! :)

Went clubbing for the grand opening of Imperial Club at Lonsdale Street. I enjoyed my night because clubbing's only right when you're with the right people. They make your clubbing night worthwhile. :)  No more clubbing for the time being, broke and assignments. :( Bad combination. 

 Getting ready for that night. :)

 At the club, with Matt and Emi. :)

The girls - Emi, Sharon, Janice and Mei Lin.

Mei Lin :)

 Sharon babe :)

 Ryan :)

 My love :)

Photo credits - taken by Imperial Club. :)

I set fire to the rain

Because writing them down would keep your emotions intact, 

and you'll know what to do thereafter. :)

True Story. 

Here me say, all these time we were waiting for each other

Looking back at all our broken and shattered memories, the pictures that we both had - it made me realized why I've lost myself in life. Never in life, have I loved someone as much as I did for you; never in life had I placed so much commitment and effort for anyone; never in life had I ever depended and rely on someone as much as I did for you.


The day I made my decision to leave you, was the day I lost myself and I screwed up. And later on, you came back into my life to pick up the broken, fucked up pieces of me. You pieced me together and it was you who pulled me together. And then after, I changed, you changed. We were both no longer the lovers that we used to be anymore. I kept you hanging, you were confused and upset. 


Finally, I've decided to end all our pain due to me being indecisive, which was best for both of us. Today, I looked through our remaining photos I have of us made me think through many things. I realized I didn't know how to love someone anymore and I missed having someone to go through life with me. 


The day I left you was the day love has left me. I realized I missed you, and I still do love you. But no matter, life goes on. And knowing what I am lacking in life, it's time to piece myself back together and start healing for a better tomorrow. I want to be the girl who used to know how to love someone, I want to be the girl who knew what she wanted out of a relationship instead of having flings. :)